It is so frustrating. I seem to have lost my will power. After one weekend, alcohol involved, I seem to have gone back a step. I went from cutting down to 5 a day, down to 4, down to 3. Then Friday night came, wine applied to the system and I had about 9 cigarettes. Gross. Saturday was no better. I was again able to keep to only a couple during the day but going out that night got the best of me. Again, smoking half a pack.
I considered the weekend a wash and started again on Monday, from the beginning. Down to 5 cigarettes. And here on Thursday, one day before my alleged quit date and I am still on 5 cigarettes a day. So far I have only had 2, and I have not smoked in my car since I think Monday, but I am sure the number will hit 5 before I go to bed.
I am starting to think 2 things. One being a small issue, I have no will power and give up easily. This is evident also in my weight loss ambitions, which have ceased to exist, growing cobwebs on my weight watchers account. And secondly, a possible solution: play hermit until I am over the worst of it. Strictly go from home to work, work to home and no where in between. Unless I have to stop for gas. No eating at restaurants. No going out for a quick drink, no going to homes of smokers, especially if there is smoking in the house. I'd say for at least 2 weeks. And with all the home time I will be wracking up in the mean time, I can use it productively, working on one of my many weakly attempted hobbies...
I'll keep you posted on how well that goes.
