Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Chapter 3 Continued

I made it 3 weeks, and counting. I am happy with my progress. I love that I am not wasting money on cigarettes and I don't wake up wheezy anymore. I do feel a tad wistful when I am around others smoking, and I enjoy being around the smoke. But aside from that, I haven't really been tempted.

The problem is my avoidance tactic has been food. Well not so much food as junk. I eat a lot of chocolate at work, ice cream at home... It's dangerous. So my new small goal will be to not have any chocolate at work today. Baby steps, people. I would promise to go for a walk or ride the bike for a while, but it's a billion degrees outside, and I plan to hide in the air conditioning when I get home.   

Whatever happens though the main focus is not to smoke. As Stacy says, don't waste all that hard work - the last 3 weeks for one cigarette. And I don't intend to! I hope I don't have a major crisis - thanks for the looming warning Dagmara - that pushes me back to smoking, but I think that I have other ways to deal now. Walking, painting, reading, listening to music... I will try to remember that as time goes on.

Keep crossing your fingers for me, saying that little prayer. I need all the help I can get.